There's this time in life when ur perfectly flowing thoughts r wavered, life takes a huge leap, things u actually think n plan n dream never come to life. Or even if they do, they fade away in a jiffy. The fading away is never taken in the right spirit, u get extremely involved n get used to it even if its for the moment.The thought of it fading away never strikes you.! Only when the cold wind hits u in the face during one of those walks, that u realise u've LOST it. It somehow never gets the better side of u. U think n think n think more, but never get to the end point. The "search" is an on going process. Once u start searching, you start to expect the unexpected. U know its not going to happen deep within u, but u want to continue doing it what so ever. Can thoughts be stopped for a while, n let the mind drop into reality?! This to me seems like a little child, hopping, singing, running down slides, swinging the swings.. looks around to show its mother its best trick on the slide, n finds that she's not around. The play was a fantasy when its dropped into reality its as lost as us. Its just matter of time that we get out of the fantasy world n jump into reality. This obviously sounds theoretical, n yes it is absolutely difficult to get into such a state of mind.! This brings my thoughts back to "search".... Does searching help ? well, this is how far I've come... gathering my thoughts, sights, dreams, introspecting..... NOPE "SEARCHING" does not help..! Sometimes u also have these preconceived notions about whats going to happen in future. In my case those aren't preconceived at all.! Well I've got no way to end my weird flow of thoughts. Life can be refered to epiphany, it does give u that jolt or a kick of reality when the fantasy goes over board.!
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