Lingering saga

another day, another light,

why does it miss my sight?                                    

another night, another dark,

why does it find my sight?

spot the corner filled with hope,

why do I tangle with the blur?

implausible malignant tears,

why do I even try to fight?

mirage of my face stares back,

why is it dubious?

mirror image as true to itself, the opposite,

why is it another dubious plot?

they say shadows follow your every move,

why can’t the obvious be proved?

story of black hole, how fascinating,

why can’t the gravity shoot a miracle n grab me in?

I can call out hard,

why does only smile overshadow my heart?

inside filled with melancholic rage,

why does only laughter take the stage?

fluttering head turns all around,

why can’t it find a single soul to hug?

heart is nothing but a fatuous illusion,

why can’t it be just another lethal organ?

even omnipotence cannot save the mortal,

why am I being so imbecile?

cry cry u stupid girl,

coz all u get out of this, is a esoteric vicious smile!

Boredom....

I have not censored certain words for, its how I feel....

Muted television,

Opened book,

Unconscious googling,

Nail biting,

Fidgeting between rooms.

Darkness, light, blind intuitions, and final déjà vu...!

Beamingly.. heart's empty,

Rested brain never rests..stay!

Rebounds of hysterical illusions,

Hits me in the face when reality slips.

Step out into the flowery garden,

Hoping to shimmer in the colorful glory.

Sigh, shame!

Withering petals and understated thorns.

Dragging her feet along, again hoping for hope,

Digs right in, fresh juicy crimson blood,

Globules of stray string pastes of dark flesh.

Not a sign of hostility or integrity,

Pain in its most integrated form dehydrates a mortal.

Oh.... what a shitty place to be!

Oh.... what a fucked up thought!

Run away run away,

Into a vast expanse.

As lost it may seem,

It’s all the simplicity a pondering mind yearns.

I always conclude with questions,

Hollow is the last word.

Never-ending can lead to ends,

Bounded by no closure.

YES, Boredom is a fucking bitch...!

never ever......

Another sleepless night..... rather a jobless devil sitting on the steps of the temple wondering where to go, agnostic yet a believer.... nevertheless it gets me to write weird, sometimes vague thoughts, metaphorically "sheep hunts a lion" (does not make any sense..? meant not to.....)

Just how much more can I let go,

if only, if only you could see beyond borders.

my mind enters a funeral,

darkness filled with certain serenity.

why is that I find this exasperating,

insanity overboard..?

jolt of lightening within a black body,

ah, my vision does not reach the aforementioned tinge.

blood that seemed so alive and red in the vein,

Dried, blackened, chipped n left to FATE.

THERE.....

on a sleepless night... this is what I got myself to do for 15mins... 


oh "hey" i see you,
there? no, but yeah i just saw you.
instant flash of rays,
blinds my pupils in mysterious ways.

bottom of a canopy in my vicinity,
but a black hole stares back mighty.
oh why the rage?
and why all the meaningless craze?

if all i need is clarity,
why nature fancies opposite polarity?
needless to say "wallow it off",
will it lessen the "wandering off"?

From here n there....

1)
U r one confusing brat,
Don't let me fall into a rat trap.
Going beyond my reach was a huge leap,
So, let me go for I know d ghastly valley is DEEP...!


2)
Times change, history always repeats,
why don't I learn from d obvious heart aches?!
I m stuck amidst the whims of an abyss,
slap me in the face n say "unknot yourself from the lace"


3)
Yes, he's a mess,
help me think widout a mesh.
When you cant say heaven frm hell,
How do I say whats underneath that shell.?


3)

Falling way beyond 6 feet,
hydrophobia while swimming is what i love.
Emotional fool, a non-edible so called "MEAT",
creeps the hell out when I look at the blind curve.

Ah.. REALLY???!!!

I remember writing about how what I dream never seems to take that leap its required to take. I had almost stopped dreaming and just worked towards something so unreal and so not ME. I had almost given up. My thoughts about how dreaming is wonderful, and reality sucks had turned into dreaming sucks and reality is God. Listening to my favorite music was the only thing that kept me alive. Dealing and compromising with what I thought life had in store for me was all I did every waking hour. Surprisingly, I felt dopped when I had dreamless nights. Felt like a corpse... no soul only body.. and a burried one indeed. I was lost in a vast Abyss that life had created for me.

But, I wake up to a great morning right after my 22nd birthday. Sipping coffee and staying silent and looking beyond the coconut tree... I think how life had taken an unexpected turn.
*ting tong* the bell rings, I drag my feet, open the door to a courier guy.
"Sunetra?"...
 "yeah! its me!"
I sign and receive a letter I had hoped and worked hard for all my life.
*pinch* OUCH...! YEAH.. REALITY... no a DREAM turned into REALITY. I was FOOL not to realize that dream and reality always go hand in hand...!

Just how life works in mysterious ways, no one has ever got anything before time or what they dont deserve. I am BACK on track... I DREAM ON again..! n HELL YEAH I DREAM.... Bring it on life..! :D :D